A New and Improved Tamara

This morning I couldn't make it to my Weight Watchers meeting because my child is ill, so I decided to go this evening. I was going to chicken out and skip the scale and just go to meeting, but decided to face the music and put my big girl panties on and deal with it.(FYI, them "big girl panties" aren't so big anymore!) I gained 2.4 pounds last week. Now my leader said that a person's weight can fluctuate somewhere between 2 and 3 pounds before morning and evening, but I know I gained something. I was not tracking everything last week. There were a couple days when I really was a chowhound. Take yesterday for example. Yesterday was the last day of tax season, which meant it was my last day until next year at H&R Block. Our office had a potluck. There was pizza, tater tot casserole, chips, dips, hummus, and Baklava. Every chance I could get I was running back to the break room to munch on something. Today the scale reflected that. 


The old Tamara would have been pissing and moaning about it. The new Tamara, however, knows where I went wrong. I knew what was coming. I didn't even have the nerve to be disappointed because I KNEW I had gained those 2.4 pounds with no one else's help but my own. That was my moment today. I didn't get upset, didn't call myself a failure, I didn't get down on myself. I just said, "Oh well". I'm proud of myself for accepting this little setback and not making a huge deal of it. I know I will do better next week. And in a couple of weeks I'll have lost 30 pounds. Stay tuned!

There's This Thing Called a Belt

Yesterday I decided to break down and FINALLY buy a belt for my pants. Since I've so far lost a bit over 20 pounds and 3 inches off of my waist my pants have been doing some serious sagging. Also, I don't need to unbutton them to take them off. I want new clothes, but I'm holding off for a little bit because as I keep losing weight, I'll have to keep replenishing my supply of clothes, and that gets expensive. So, I found myself looking at the nice belts at Fred Meyer yesterday. To my delight, not only were they on sale, but there was a 15% off coupon for them, too. My daughter Paris was with me, and she was very impatient, and kept whining for me to hurry. I wanted to try the belts on in the fitting room, because I wanted privacy. Paris was whining about that, too, so I said this to her: "You either come with me to the fitting room so I can try these belts on, or get embarrassed because my pants fell down." She said nothing and followed me to the fitting room. :-)
I'm now the proud owner of a reversible belt-it's black on one side and brown on the other. I haven't been able to wear a belt for 2 years now. It feels good to need one. Now the challenge will be to see how long it takes until I have to tighten the belt a little more. 


In other news, I went to my weigh in today, and I had lost .4 pounds. No, it wasn't the number I expected, however, a loss is a loss, no matter how small. Each and every little bit adds years to my life and makes me healthier. I'm thankful. I've got this!

4.2 is the Magic Number!

Today I went to the doctor for a check up and to see if I can get my ovarian cyst treated. To make a long story short, things are in place to get treatment. First I'll try a birth control pill that has a higher dose of estrogen than I'm already taking and then in 3 months time I'll follow up with him to see if that's helped. If not, we'll go from there. It was nice to talk to someone who seems genuinely interested in my well-being. I'm on the road to recovery where my reproductive system is concerned. 


Now, regarding my weight loss journey. Part of the process when you visit the doctor is to get blood pressure and weight checked. Tomorrow is my weigh in at Weight Watchers. I asked the nurse if I could turn around and that she not reveal my weight. I wanted so badly to see my number, but if I've reached my goal of losing 10% of my starting weight (or 4.2 pounds since last week) I want to share that with the leader and the members at my meeting tomorrow. I am all about being the center of attention for something like this! I love the recognition. We'll see what happens tomorrow, and of course I'll give an update here. 


Before I go, I wanted to share a picture that another Weight Watchers member shared on Facebook. It really makes you rethink getting upset over just a pound of weight loss. Knowing I've so far lost 17.8 of this is mind blowing! 

Closing In On Another Weight Loss Goal

Today I went in for my weigh in and meeting at Weight Watchers, and was expecting that a) I had gained weight, or b) I lost nothing at all. I had a stressful couple of weeks. Last week I didn't even go to a meeting because my hormones were already raging out of control and I was sure I'd break down and cry if the scale was not my friend. Well, I lost 5 pounds. I was ecstatic. This means that since I started Weight Watchers on January 4, 2012 I've lost 17.8 pounds. 


I already reached my first weight loss goal by losing 5% of my body weight a few weeks back. My next goal is 10% of my starting body weight and I have just 4.2 pounds to go. Can I do that in a week? If stick to the program, exercise, and track everything I believe I can. This means not "eating my feelings" if I have a bad day, or eat a snack because someone else is eating a snack. I know I can do this! If I lose 5 pounds I'll be under 200 pounds, and I haven't been under 200 since 2009. I lost weight before on my own. I had lost almost 60 pounds, but I slipped into old habits and gained half of it back. Not this time. I'm determined to become a lifetime member at Weight Watchers. This means reaching my goal, WHEN I do that, I get to go to meetings for free. How awesome is that?



Stay tuned for more updates!