Cheater!

I started writing this blog 3 years ago because my dad's declining health scared me enough to make some changes. Well, in 3 years I could have reached my goal, but I'm now 10 pounds away from my starting weight. I've tried several weight loss methods. What I tried didn't fail. I failed! Weight Watchers has been the most successful for me by far. I lost 42 pounds. I also completed the Focus T-25 program from Team Beachbody. Well, what happened?

I became a slave to food again. I began eating when I was bored, stressed, tired, etc. I started eating just because someone else did. I also stopped exercising. Mix bad food choices with a sedentary lifestyle and you get one tired, bloated, crabby woman. My headaches came back daily, when they were almost absent while I was actively trying to lose weight.

I have no issues eating healthy. I love to eat healthy. I just need to stop making excuses to have the carbs and sugar. I need to stop saying, "I'll start again tomorrow." Someone told me "Everyone needs a cheat day." No you don't! When you cheat on a program, you cheat yourself. You're adding extra fat, sugar, or wherever else to work off. Why do that to yourself? I have cheated myself for years. I've cheated myself out of smaller clothes. I've cheated myself out of more productive days off because I'm too tired and lazy. No more cheating! I am tired of wasting time. I keep starting over and over again. My dad doesn't get to start over. Due to complications from his diabetes he lost a leg. I want to keep my limbs and my life!

How will I do that? By exercising some self control & limiting my sugar intake. Writing out grocery lists and sticking to them. Most importantly, if I do slip, I won't put myself down, because that will just lead me to feel sorry for myself and say "What the hell?" and eat some more.

I want to inspire others to succeed. That won't happen if I keep cheating. No one likes a cheater!

I'm Baaaaack!

It has been quite some time since I last wrote.

A lot has happened. To sum it all up: I live in Missouri now, I found true love, and I found some pounds to go with it.

2013 was quite a year, and 2014 has started off quite interesting as well. My boyfriend and I just celebrated our 1 year anniversary. My dad was hospitalized for congestive heart failure. A week ago today I had a car wreck and hit a tree.

I’ve been up and down emotionally, and old habits die hard so you can guess how I’ve coped: eating. I am just 5 pounds from getting up to 200 pounds again. I am still that fat girl, who thinks about what I’m going to have for dinner, when I’ve barely finished my breakfast. My boyfriend lost 40 pounds in a 13 week period on P90x, but due to some stress and changes in his life, he has also gained weight back.

How am I going to get back to that confident, sassy, and motivational fireball again? Well, at my job we are doing our own version of The Biggest Loser. Each week we will weigh in and the person with the highest percentage of fat lost will win $12. At the end of the 10 weeks, the biggest loser will get $120. I had to put in $16 to enter the contest and I am determined to get that back and then some. I know that this week I will have a gain, because it has been a fast food free-for-all for me. Next week, however, watch out! I will start back on Focus T25, a Beach Body program started by Shawn T. I consider it to be a stepping stone to finally have a healthy lifestyle. Don’t worry. I am still bound and determined to be a Zumba instructor. Those of you that have read my blogs know I have wanted to do that for a long time.

This is the year folks. I am kicking ass and taking initials because I have no time to take names! Stay tuned!